Monday, April 14, 2008

Time to think

Seek out that particular mental attitude which makes you feel most deeply and vitally alive, along with which comes the inner voice which says, "this is the real me", and when you have found that attitude, follow it.
_W. James
The real me? Sort of like, "to thine own self be true"? That takes courage and lots of self confidence!
I'm in the process of accepting myself. This is a full time job!!! I find I'm trying to accept aging, disappointment, failure, loss and a host of personal flaws. I'm judgemental of myself, so I must have been judgemental of others.
I'm sorry.
Like I said, I'm in the process. I am trying to stop judging others and maybe by doing this, I'll lighten up on myself.
I hope so.
I hope I find the "this is the real me" attitude and then follow it. I think at times in my life I've certainly felt close to this point but I couldn't hold on to it.
The past 10 days have been topsy-turvy for me. Husband had the flu, so he was home and I was busy taking care of him, then when he felt better we went to our cabin and really, it's so peaceful there, I'd rather not have had to come back. I never know just how much noise pollution drives me nuts until it ceases.
I don't think anybody should rob another of hearing a robin sing. Yet, I need to learn to love the neighbor's son who rides his 4-wheeler all afternoon or to say a little prayer for the people riding Harleys that zoom by all day. If I can do this, then I'm on the right path......I'm sure.


Rosie's Whimsy said...

You have such a good heart! Hubby and I get so irritated at times when we are having a perfectly lovely quiet time on the back porch with nothing to see but woods....then what comes through on the nearest road? A noisy motorcycle! I try to not let it take away my joy.....but it is indeed hard to do at times. Thanks for gentle post. :-) Rosie

RainbowMom said...

Ahh! Lovely post. I think in being human we constantly strive to accept ourselves as limited as we may feel lugging our these heavy bodies while our Spirits reach high! lol I guess it's a way to keep us from floating off to never never land! *grin* I tend to think that when I stop judging myself, I immediately lose judgement on others! I think the things I see in others that make us want to judge them are things that we reject and dislike within ourselves! We accept those good, bad, sad, strange, awesome things within ourselves and everyone else's in every moment becomes perfectly loveable! And, there certainly is something to be said for silence, I sooo agree. Just my thoughts. :) Peace!